So sometime this semester I just stopped blogging. No specific reason why, mostly I just ran out of time. I suppose I'll post a few highlights once I get home but I wanted to post one reflection before leaving Europe.
Home. I have referred to many places as such in the 21 years of my life. From my childhood house beside the parkway entrance in Fords to a suburban bilevel in South Brunswick, from a closet-like dorm room in Ewing to a spacious apartment in Prague, from a room in a Nicaraguan family's house to a cabin in the woods of Bushkill, Pennsylvania; the word "home" has been attributed to a variety of places over the span of my life thus far-some of which I never could have imagined a few years ago. But I have come to the conclusion, as I have cycled through all of these living spaces, that home is not a place at all.
Homesickness is a condition of the heart. It's that nostalgic moment when you look back and say "look how happy I was back then." It's that moment when you remember the people in the room, the events that occurred in it, the memories that were made there, not the space itself. And if homesickness is a heart condition, then home too must be more than simply a place.
Home is where your family is, whether they be family by blood or family by choice. Home is the place where the best memories are made. Maybe the events are fairly insignificant: a conversation at the dinner table, a night up too late talking about nothing in particular, a random trip to a local attraction (whether it be a strange art gallery or the town Walmart)...maybe even blasting a song and singing along on the way; but home is a collection of meaningful insignificance. There is no way to tell why or how these things make a "home," but they do.
And whether good times or bad, home is the place you are able to love and be loved freely and openly. But the most difficult thing about the term, and the most beautiful thing, at the same time, is the fact that this can happen virtually anywhere. So I have come to notice that the further and more frequently I travel, the more I expand my "family-by-choice," the more my home spreads across the globe. Today I can easily say that my home is not one place, but many. It's wherever my closest family reside. The sad part about this realization is that, no matter what I do, I'm always going to be a little bit homesick. There is always going to be someone across the world who I wish could be home with me. But the incredible part about this network of homes, of people who I care so deeply about, provides me with infinite opportunities to (if I am so blessed to be able to) continue to explore this world and still feel at home.
As of today, I am leaving behind one place I have called home. Today I begin writing a new chapter in my life. As hard as it is to turn the page, I can rest easy knowing that I am going from one home to another.